Show me the way

We take from the Earth what is good & pure. We give back what is bad and tainted.
We take from a person what is innocent and replace it with tears & scars.
OH Great Spirit
Teach me how to Love. Show me the correct path.
~JWM

Unseen

You looked through the forest and could not see the solitary tree
You looked through the souls and you missed me~ JWM

A painful journey

They say suicide is painless
Perhaps one day I'll find out.
Anything must feel better
Than all this God damned Pain
Yet I'm chicken shit
Afraid
Afraid of death
Afraid to live
So distraught inside
Always on the hair trigger of suicide
But aren't we all slowly dying
Shouldn't we be instead slowly living
Life is too fucking short
So why would I want to trim it
Lonlieness is a whole new pain
Just like most internal pains are
You don't see it through my fake smile
You don't even see it in my tears
Had it not for my fears
I would be dead long ago
But somehow I want to live
I do it all for one thing
An invisible force
I'm not even sure exists anymore
I do it for the hope of love
I do it for a soul mate
I do it for an animal they say has no soul
I don't live for me
I live in hopes of YOU
That makes me irrepressible
Damaged beyond on my own good
You all turn your backs to me
Leave me down
Well remember if I rise out of THIS
I won't know WHO you are either
They say suicide is selfish
Yet loving only yourself isn't?
Hypocrites everywhere
Do this don't do that
Good advice
Why because it works for you?
Guess what I'm me
Nothing works
Nothing here to see
I'd be home already
If I knew exactly where home would be.

328 A Day of of Fate

Date: 3 28
Time: 448
Place: The Keweenaw Peninsula

Today is an important day where 2 3 should transform into an 8
Unfortunately the universe hasn't made that alignment
So impatiently I shall await for where 2 imperfect souls mesh to form that imperfect perfect 8
I say this to the universe and leave it to fate...

Have You ever Loved a Shell?

Have your ever loved a shell?
Realizing there was nothing inside
Except me from time to time
An empty soul
Nothing there emotionally
Just whites of eyes
Well I have loved one too many bodies
For the female body I adore
The curves the Boobies
Maybe it makes me a man whore
But again I realize loving a shell
Shall be as useless as trying to love the actual skeleton we ALL decompose to.
Don't you wish they had an xray machine for the the soul?
Wait they do
It's called the eyes
Perhaps I've spent too much time focused on the thighs
My true soulmate shall find me
In the meantime I'm going to let it be...

Irony of Life

Oh the bittersweet irony of life.
Where I expect happiness
I find suffocating sadness
Where I expect pleasure
I found profound pain
The woman I never expected to lose
I lost all too long ago.
The children I expected to father
Took away from me & pushed even farther

I used to think life was so unfair.
Poor Poor me
But actually it is fair
It's perfected planned Karma
Coupled with Irony
Threesomed with Dogma
Finished out with Satire

There you have it:
Life's K.I.D.S
Oh the perpetual paradoxical irony of Life

Who would have thought that
Through a permanent icon of sadness
I'd become happier than I ever felt.
Through the darkest days I shall discover the most light
From the greatest losses I shall gain the most
With the greatest pain I'll discover the deepest pleasure
Finally from being the poorest I shall become the richest man.

Oh the beautiful sweet irony of this life!

A 3 Epiphany in the 3AM

As I lay me now down to rest(@ 3AM)
I shall feel evermore blessed
As I drift to peaceful sleep
I wish to leave you all with something deep
I am ready to start that next chapter in my life
Finding my 3 my breath my soul & my someday wife
I'm thankful for my new family
As I let go of the old
Eeyore I shall remain
However I'm moving on from this pain
Those that are with me shall gain
Mutually beneficial friends
New beginnings and no ends
Though I feel thoroughly blessed
I have not yet fell asleep on my soulmate's chest.8