She Knows

So when this whole thing subsides and my freedom comes back

I shall cautiously lick my finger

Cast it to the sky.

I will let the wind of change blow me

I shall take a close listen to my heart.

I'll lay my ear to the Earth.

I'll open my eyes...

Will you be there to catch my vibe?

Will your arms be open?

Will your ears hear my words?

Will your soul feel me?

~JWM 4/18/20

wanna

I wanna lay in your arms

I wanna look into your eyes

I wanna see your soul

I want to dream with you

Look into these eyes so blue

I wanna touch your soul

I wanna smell your presence

I wanna taste your love

I wanna know the map of your mind

I wanna forever call you mine

Home

If you loved me like you  should
We'd be home by now
If you showed me the love I deserve
We'd be home by now
If you gave your heart to me
We'd be home by now
If you gave your soul to me
We'd be home by now
If you gave your tears to me
We'd be home by now
If you gave your fears to me
We'd be home by now
If you gave your years to me
We'd be home by now
Why won't you give yourself to me
I gave myself to you
We should be home by now

Next

Broken am I
Scorned becoming
Devoid of love
Scars
Tears
Empty spaces
Frowning faces
Darkness sets in
PAIN admidst pain
What happens next

So not happy there
Definitely NOT here
Not happy anywhere
Happy under a tree
Happy out to sea?
Where is this happy place
I know not for look at my face
~ Dr Joey Suess

WHY

Why would I want to be a burden?
Why would I want to be a bother?
Why do I even bother?
Who would miss me if I was gone?
Does it even matter?
Am I even here?
Where?
Why?
Well there's NOTHING
Nothing I can do right
That's a fact...

I've had 99 bitches but all I want is THE 1

My own mantra is
"I'm not looking for 99 bitches that can live without me...I'm looking for the ONE who can't."
To be THIS you'd be my end game.
To be THIS you'd be my "ride or die"
To be THIS you'd dry the tears from each other's eyes.
The depth that I project this quote to the universe is one of MY soul.
It is my belief that we all have a soulmate.
Some of us may even have multiples.
But no matter how many
I still believe that it comes down to one.
One life mate to walk hand in hand with
One life mate that you form a life with.
One life mate that you grow old with.
To me THIS is the ultimate definition of LOVE.
I believe you'll know this person when you meet them.
They might not arrive in the package that you were expecting.
Actually from my personal experience I believe they may outwardly appear the opposite of what you were "looking" for.
Is that a bad thing?
Hell No!!
Did you fall in love before you even met in the flesh?
In my case... YES!!!
So with that said
I'm no longer seeking 99 bitches to fill my empty days with
But one very special woman who will find that she can't live without me...