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If you loved me like you  should
We'd be home by now
If you showed me the love I deserve
We'd be home by now
If you gave your heart to me
We'd be home by now
If you gave your soul to me
We'd be home by now
If you gave your tears to me
We'd be home by now
If you gave your fears to me
We'd be home by now
If you gave your years to me
We'd be home by now
Why won't you give yourself to me
I gave myself to you
We should be home by now

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Broken am I
Scorned becoming
Devoid of love
Scars
Tears
Empty spaces
Frowning faces
Darkness sets in
PAIN admidst pain
What happens next

So not happy there
Definitely NOT here
Not happy anywhere
Happy under a tree
Happy out to sea?
Where is this happy place
I know not for look at my face
~ Dr Joey Suess

WHY

Why would I want to be a burden?
Why would I want to be a bother?
Why do I even bother?
Who would miss me if I was gone?
Does it even matter?
Am I even here?
Where?
Why?
Well there's NOTHING
Nothing I can do right
That's a fact...

I've had 99 bitches but all I want is THE 1

My own mantra is
"I'm not looking for 99 bitches that can live without me...I'm looking for the ONE who can't."
To be THIS you'd be my end game.
To be THIS you'd be my "ride or die"
To be THIS you'd dry the tears from each other's eyes.
The depth that I project this quote to the universe is one of MY soul.
It is my belief that we all have a soulmate.
Some of us may even have multiples.
But no matter how many
I still believe that it comes down to one.
One life mate to walk hand in hand with
One life mate that you form a life with.
One life mate that you grow old with.
To me THIS is the ultimate definition of LOVE.
I believe you'll know this person when you meet them.
They might not arrive in the package that you were expecting.
Actually from my personal experience I believe they may outwardly appear the opposite of what you were "looking" for.
Is that a bad thing?
Hell No!!
Did you fall in love before you even met in the flesh?
In my case... YES!!!
So with that said
I'm no longer seeking 99 bitches to fill my empty days with
But one very special woman who will find that she can't live without me...

Broken

If this is it so be it
We didn't have much fun
No seasons in the sun.
We went on one adventure together
Daily STRESS
Daily regrets
Lost bets
NOTHING during the last week
Did I sign up for.
NOTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME
Perhaps THE single longest week of
MY LIFE
YOUR LIFE
THINGS I NEVER THOUGHT
I'D HAVE TO SEE
If this is it, let it be
The loneliest of loneliness
ALONE in a whole new plane.
NOTHING makes much sense.
WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED?!
WALLS UP
New ones built!!
Second chance...
For you maybe
If this is it so be it

Be Someone's Beacon

Be someone's beacon in this dark storm of life
Be someone's comfort in times of pain
Be someone's reason to smile
Be someone's reason to laugh
Be someone's hand to hold
Be someone's story yet to be told
Be someone's safe harbor
Be someone's shoulder to cry on
Be someone's ear to listen
Be someone's partner in crime
Be someone's love of their life
Be someone's calm in a rolling sea
Be someone's beacon in this dark storm of life...